2AM

It is 2AM and I'm going to bed with a piercing dull headache and a head full of ideas.  As decision sciences are the basis of the bachelors degree I'm working toward, Im thinking about the constant choices I'm making in my life.  While I see a future of easy creativity and joy I feel myself grinding away, like I'm climbing from the bottom of a steep pyramid with all my shit on my back and in my arms.  I enjoy being, careful.  And I enjoy the view.  The visions that grab me are light and full of appreciation and wonder while my foot aches and my eyes sting.  I know my life is a big exciting gift even when I feel burnt out and know I need a vacation.