I just can't help but wonder what the hell is up with deja vu's. I just had one. I saw the same line of text I'd seen before, sitting in the same seat I was in "before". Had I thought the words but never written them? Had I actually written them somewhere else? When I look at the details, I know for certain everything is very specific and unique, but I still feel like it's a copy of some other experience. It feels so strangely interesting yet oddly very generic. In a stream of thoughts and questions, I have an idea: is a "deja vu" moment just a pattern of experience or "context" that I am experiencing again but that contains new subjective filling? While the specific details seem just as acutely original as the physical sensation of profound wonder, I can't help but wonder--after this has happened yet again--that life may hold itself together in symbolic or patterned forms. Forms that are filled with something else. And this curiousity clearly comes from a mind that perceives "reality" in subject-object terms of dualism. With all these questions, I honestly don't want an answer. I just want to know what other people think is going on. With all this thinking, and as far as it (won't) lead, I know it's just a feeling. And since there really is no "point" in holding any thought form about this feeling, I appreciate these strange moments as reminders that life is wildly mysterious.
Another thought that comes to mind is that in deja-vus I've had, I seem to remember that the experience of that now, as a certain copy of a then seemed really no different than the original then moment. So if the experience of "this has happened before!" (now) did indeed happen just the same (then), it must have been an experience where I would have thought "wow! this has happened before!" (the ancestral now-then) and on and on and the strangeness/copied-ness of the experience would enforce itself. As this temporal riddle sounds to me like just a cumbersome, odd, and shaky mental construct, I will notice my situational set and setting. As for now I am mildly tired, not particularly intoxicated, and emotionally comfortable. I am fairly neutral and relaxed in my body and my mind and I feel healthy. I did not expect this to happen and I have no reaction to it other than wonder. It is exciting. Maybe it's just some crazy cosmic candy that fell from who knows where for no good reason. Then so be it.